Remember National Board Certification? Well, I didn't score high enough. Yep- failure. I found out Friday that I was one of the 60% that fails on the first try. Surprisingly, I handled the actual news quite well. I promised myself that I wouldn't cry and I held to that until Friday night when I talked to Jenn on the phone. See, they break your score into 10 sections (there were 10 parts to this 'project') and then each section is weighted. For each section you score below a certain score, they give you the option to retake that section. I have the option to retake 4 out of the 10 to try to get my score up to 275. At first, I was just ready to bag the whole idea. I just felt so defeated and so SICK OF WORKING HARD.
Yeah, the Quitter Me lasted less than 12 hours. All it took was a little push from my principal to get me to agree to at least re-look at my things to see what I could do and which sections, if not all 4, I would like to resubmit. Alecia talked me through a lot of the frustration by listing all the things I had/have going on in my life over the past year. On top of that, it was the most tumultuous year of my life. Basically telling me to give myself a giant break. So... just like the sub 3 hour marathon, keep on trucking, right? I didn't get it the first time. So what? If something was easy, everyone would do it.
Ryan Hall is one of my favorite runners, but mostly b/c of his past. While he was 'good' in high school, he wasn't knock-the-doors-down phenomenal. Now? Oh yeah, he rocks in a major way. He is also known to be a tremendously hard worker, another characteristic I admire in people. I read more about him in Sept/Oct 2009 issue of Marathon & Beyond. I found this quote which totally fits my situation.
"Dream big, but let your dreams inspire how you live today. Dreams should not be about the end goal, but rather about day-to-day living." ~Ryan Hall
Ps. Oh, yeah- running. I haven't been doing it this week!!!! I took a whole week off, but plan to run a little today. The break felt very nice and I did eliptical 3 days this week. Other than that, I caught up on sleep and did a lot of stretching/foam rolling.