October 8, 2009

Keeping Life in Perspective

Yeah, my last post was from my other personality. Apparently, I am bipolar (not really, but I sure do feel like it). I am feeling WAAAAY better now, even excited. I started to get out of my funk last night when I was packing. I had to dig my winter clothes out of our spare closet. I realized something weird about me. Maybe you can chime in and tell me if it's true for you, too. I base how much I like my clothes on things that have happened to me while wearing them. For example, I found one of my Christmas shirts and immediately put it in my school bag to give away. (I'm dorked out; I know.) I wore that shirt last year on The Worst Day of My Life. There is no way I'm wearing it again, no matter how cute. The same goes for the shirt I wore for my race in St. Louis. Yeah, it's such a cute color, but just not happening for this race. Too many bad memories there. I also pulled out my lucky brown boots, the ones that bring happiness. I also packed my Back In The Groove Sweater that I wore last year when I came back to the land of the living. (That was actually this year, but last school year.) I've been stalking the weather. Some reports look pretty bad, while others look good. As long as it's not a driving rain storm like St. Louis, I think I'll manage. I left school today feeling like I was walking on clouds. So good. A few nice things happened today. 1. K sent me flowers at work w/ a very sweet card wishing me luck. 2. One of the teachers that I've been mentoring gave me a little lotion basket and VERY nice card as a "thank you." According to her, she couldn't have made it through this start of this year without me. 3. I got a letter from one of my old students, saying he missed me and was working really hard. This was really special b/c he is a student with autism that I spent a great deal of time with to improve his reading. 4. The kids were disappointed to find out that they will have a sub tomorrow. Then they gave me a pep talk, telling me that I would definitely "win" this race. LOL. OTOH, I am feeling some guilt about leaving. This always happens during football season. Tomorrow just happens to be a bit different. The Eagles are playing the #1 team in the state tomorrow night and THE GAME IS ON TV. Also, it's the other team's homecoming. Nice, huh? I know K is stressed, and I really wish I could be there for him. Also, tomorrow is one of my student's birthday. I will be missing her party. I really hate missing their parties. When you turn 9, your birthday is The Best Day of the Year. Alright, I did my running this week, and all parts seem to be in order. Nothing hurting or sore. I feel sluggish, but that's normal. I haven't been sleeping like I should, but what else is new? Thanks for the positive thoughts, everyone! I'm feeling back to normal, knowing that this is just a race, one of many. I really want to do well, but it's not life or death, and it's not a cure for cancer. Just me- out there running. Oh yeah, my friend, Connie, sent me this video. She swears that I'm the girl in it. LOL. I hope you enjoy it!

9 comments:

  1. funny video! glad your feeling like your usual self and are getting excited.

    some great things happening to you today, love that your kiddos gave you a pep talk :)

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  2. Glad things are looking up!! :) Cannot wait to hear about your race!

    CJ

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  3. I just HAD to say that the video is a classic... I'm going to have to "borrow" this...

    I'll be watching for a PR from u... U know u can do it, you being your worst critic, I'm sure you have it all mapped out for your next race. Glad to see back in great spirits!!!

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  4. Great video. I can be that way about football, too (except the Gators). Glad you are feeling better about everything. We all go through those tough times.

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  5. Hi! I'm just a random person who has you on my google reader, but I wanted to wish you luck this weekend. Your hard work is an inspiration!

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  6. Great to see your spirits are back up! GOOD LUCK!

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  7. I totally agree with you about the clothing thing-- which is why I don't wear my beloved Zebra skirt in important races anymore. I am glad your spirits are up and that some good things have been happening to you.

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  8. Hilarious video!

    Rebecca, may tomorrow be your Best Day Of The Year. :-)

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  9. good to see you so happy and nice running yesterday!

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