I am sick. Yep, sinus & ear infection. I haven't been feeling myself for the past few days. I finally decided to visit the doctor when I woke up Friday morning with a fever. Due to drug allergies, I am very limited on the antibiotics I can take. I ended up with the controversial drug, Cipro. The first listed side effect of this drug is tendon swelling, not exactly ideal for someone who's running a marathon in 9 days. I talked with her about my concerns and she basically told me that the only antibiotics she could give me were in that family. She told me the tendon risks are small and if I felt anything in the tendons, I should stop the meds immediately.
Today, I did a lot of driving due to errands and what-not. During my alone time I got a chance to really reflect on this training cycle. This entire period in my life has been one big obstacle, why would this week be any different? I didn't actually expect to get through taper incident free. I know I'm taking a risk w/ the meds, and I know it is likely I won't be 100% on race day. Last night I was literally sobbing thinking, why me, blah, blah, blah, poor me. This morning, as I was driving, I thought about something one of my best friends told me back at Christmas. We were discussing my life's problems and some things that had happened to me. She said, "This obstacle is your marathon, not the 26.2." She is so right. The entire time period from Christmas to now has been like a marathon, with the finish being the toughest. I've decided to view next Sunday that way, too. I might have odds against me; I might not be 100%, but I will finish. Hopefully it will symbolize finishes in other areas, too. I'll save that for the RR, though. Say a prayer for me tonight, friends, if you don't mind. My own prayer for the past 4 months has been the same, to stay strong.